I'm feeling very sad and overwhelmed tonight. I just have had a sinking feeling all day that I am missing something. I feel like I'm terribly behind in Nate's therapies and care. I'm doing the things the early intervention people have told me to do, but I just know there is more. I've been reading about these programs (neurodevelpment programs) out there that do an intense assessment and set up an aggressive program for us to follow to set Nate up for the greatest success. Of course, these are not covered by insurance and are very expensive. So, I need to spend every moment searching online and reading books to try to make sure I'm doing everything possible.
I barely have energy for Cody right now, so I have that guilt piling up on top of the "not-doing-enough-for-Nate" guilt.
I'm sad....very sad.