Hi there! I'm the type of person who has a hard time getting past the big, overwhelming task and breaking it down into parts. Hence, the absence on the blog here. It has been so long that I couldn't figure out where to start. Until now.
I've had a REALLY BIG change in the past few weeks. REALLY BIG! I went on a retreat and the theme was "Measureless Love". We learned about how infinite God's love is for us. I always hope God will speak to me with something very specific when I go on a retreat, but often I just have seeds planted and something to explore. This time was different.
My thought before the weekend: God gave me Nate AND He loves me.
My thought after the weekend: God gave me Nate BECAUSE He loves me.
God knew exactly what I needed when He placed Nate in our family. When I came back from my weekend away, I just breathed Nate in and held him and held him. I did not want to let him go. As if to say, "Hi little man, I see you and I've returned a new mom for you. I'm different. Do you feel it?". I think he does.
The week after the retreat, God showed me exactly what He was trying to tell me. Knowing that we are all "made in His image", I had to recognize that includes Nate! So, parts of God's character are expressed through Nate and since he is uniquely created, I have a chance to see something through Nate that I probably won't see through any other relationship in my life. WOW!
This realization made me want to chant, "I know something you don't know...nah, nah, nah, nah, nah, nah...".
I began STUDYING Nate and watching for God to show me what part of Himself He is expressing through Nate. The first 2 things I noticed:
*He cares about the little things - Nate was admiring his hands and it made me stop to see that, yes, all the intricacies of our hands, our fingers, the creases, fingerprints....all of it...it's amazing. God loves the details.
*He can't get enough of me - If Nate had his way he would climb all over me all day and savor every moment. He gives me kisses and cuddles and shows me how great he thinks I am every day. The Creator of the universe feels the same way about me!
I am going to try to share what God shows me through Nate in a series called, "In HIS Image". Thanks for being on the journey with me.
In great anticipation,